Quitting

I just give up sometimes
throw in the towel
it's easy to do but the consequences
the missed chances
they're hard to deal with
I wonder if I made the right decision
I was destined to fail but...
if I had just tried harder
not given up so easy
I probably would have been better off.
I have no emotional stamina
once I hit a road block I crash and burn
it's cost me a lot in my life so far
I didn't get into the school I wanted to get in
my life turned into a rollercoaster
are things getting better?
I can't even tell anymore.
So here I sit on my couch
wasting my time thinking about dropping that class
the people that I let down
I disappoint myself so much sometimes
giving up is my fault
but it's hardwired into my brain almost
and this lying thing
I've seriously got to work on that.
These little drops in the bucket are gonna fill it one day
and where am I gonna dump it all out?