Dizzy

I feel like I'm on the verge
of a disaster
it makes me anxious
my stomach twists and turns with fear
I think of all the people I'll disappoint
people I've already let down
it makes me sick
in 10 years where will I be?
Still living with my parents?
Scraping by with little to my name?
I'm not very lucky.
I need something to give me hope
I need an inner voice to guide me
maybe I've just been ignoring it
maybe all the answers are right in front of me.
I'm avoiding the inevitable
this whole dream I have
it's already started crashing down