It Took Awhile

Maybe too long
for me to realize
things are slowly evolving
like a new body
slinking in it's newly formed skin
clorox on the carpet
rubbed into my eyes
I want it to bleach my irises
make me aryan

Hi

I haven't written in you in a long time.
Have you been holding up?
I've been collapsing like a melting candle stick.

New Year

I can only pray
this year is better
I can only hope
that I'm not buried underneath
the failures of 2008
I can only pray

Praying

I prayed the whole rosary for you
hail mary 50 times over
repetition with intense concentration
praying for you to be conceived
God answered my prayer

now I pray for something else
I pray for you to live
I pray for you to be born
child so innocent and harmless
I pray you grow to be strong
God holds your future in his hands
please don't fade away
don't become a miscarriage
stay with us child
until you are made ready for the world.
I will pray for you until you are born.

Happy

Christmas is a day that I don't usually think a lot about.
I think about it now.
He works his way into your heart and thaws all the ice around it
I will walk with him to the end of the earth
he has me in his hands and he's holding me up to the sun
he created life in something that used to be dead
he made me feel something I haven't felt in many years
I'm Happy.

White Dove

I can sense the grace inside you
a spirit so thin and weightless
what keeps you flying?
Where do you go?
I see you stand with black birds on a powerline
you stand out like sun rays in a dull grey sky
God put something in you
built your wings and beak
you sing to me and to all that can hear you
I want to sing too.

This struck me

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8