Rays of light

Illuminate something I couldn't see before
music being the prism of the soul
and where I am
I can hold a question forever
like the light of a million suns
or a million moons.
I want you to take me to the top of the mountain
and just hold me down when I can't go any higher.
I've been sitting here asking myself the same question for years
wondering about God
thinking about you
whoever you are.
I think I love everything you don't mean
and everything you do
because you're an idiot
and I'm an idiot
and we're on this rollercoaster ride together
believe it or not
we're doing this right
and I just want you to know that when you finally come down
we're gonna look around and say
"We did this right."
I wish I could go to the other side of that stupid bridge with my heart and say
"Look what you've done big girl"
and point straight to you and let you have it.
You mean more than dollar signs
you mean a million thanks
and a million lies
and I can take all of them.
I'll treat you well
I have enough love to go around
because I'm not trying to play around
I'm trying to be your friend,
even if I can't love you enough
even if I don't have a penis I want you to know
I'm there for you and I'll be there for you
till your hands fall down in defeat
and all you're left with is me
a dumb 19 year old from texas
who cares more about you than you know
you silly fool.
Don't go fucking this up
and talking about science
because god knows science is a lie
made up by the devil
because he's the trickiest son of a bitch out there.
He'll tell you anything to get you running.