A Terrible Mess

You left me in shambles again
little pieces on the floor
rifle through my parts
to find what you were looking for

take your time
nobody notices when you slice a hole in my life
nobody cares when you're the monkey on my back
I'm squirming on the inside
you've cut straight to the bone again

take me to the cathedral
hold me on that high pedestal
I'll jump off again and again
I'm terribly hard to hold on to
I'm air and spirit flying around you

don't you want to control me?
Don't you want to be a part of me?
You can't and it kills you
you've become a monster
a killer
I don't want you
and who you once were
you're not
you've rotted like flesh
unrecognizable
dead

I wish it weren't true
but I'm a part of you
a naked fool in your deck of cards
just waiting to be tossed down on the table
I'm just a mess
a terrible mess
nobody's coming to clean me up this time again