Praying

I prayed the whole rosary for you
hail mary 50 times over
repetition with intense concentration
praying for you to be conceived
God answered my prayer

now I pray for something else
I pray for you to live
I pray for you to be born
child so innocent and harmless
I pray you grow to be strong
God holds your future in his hands
please don't fade away
don't become a miscarriage
stay with us child
until you are made ready for the world.
I will pray for you until you are born.

Happy

Christmas is a day that I don't usually think a lot about.
I think about it now.
He works his way into your heart and thaws all the ice around it
I will walk with him to the end of the earth
he has me in his hands and he's holding me up to the sun
he created life in something that used to be dead
he made me feel something I haven't felt in many years
I'm Happy.

White Dove

I can sense the grace inside you
a spirit so thin and weightless
what keeps you flying?
Where do you go?
I see you stand with black birds on a powerline
you stand out like sun rays in a dull grey sky
God put something in you
built your wings and beak
you sing to me and to all that can hear you
I want to sing too.

This struck me

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

The Spirit In Me

It erases the black clouds around my head
clears my eyes and all my senses
I speak truth with holy conviction
I feel the power that it bestows upon me

I feel light and weightless
I no longer fear that which I don't understand
I follow step for step up a steep path

When I trip I do not fret
for I am still on the path to salvation
I can see the other paths from where I am

all lit up like the Las Vegas strip
they dance and rattle bones while they walk
the fear hasn't hit them yet

on my narrow path I am being tested
I feel the reward in my soul
the cracks in my heart are filled in with clay

I feel the spirit
now it's mine

Blue and Green

I am a tiny spectrum
I take up space
I'm told I have a purpose
it must be too simple for me to notice
I just can't make a decision
it physically hurts me to let anyone down
want to know how I spend my saturdays?
I sit in a room with the radio on and read the bible.
The sinner's life is much more fun, crazier, unpredictable
I shed my skin already.
Time to enjoy this new life I've been given.

Stagnant

I am an immovable object
a ticking time bomb
I am on self-distruct mode every day
they walk around like they're walking on eggshells
I'm weak but I found endurance somewhere
God seems less far away.
I see him reaching out his hand
I wonder if he can lead me in the right direction.
I might be a prophet
everything will be answered in time
right now I should just walk around blind with faith as my only guide
is it supposed to work like that?

Waiting

When you're in line
you forget who you are
you're taught to be a number
when you're in line

did I miss the answer?
It was close enough to touch
yanked away by someone
I felt it with my fingertips.
Now it's gone.